How Did You Hold On? ~ Part 5 of 5

Where is the loving, benevolent God? Why do we go through horrific times? Why does He allow devastation into our lives?

To even begin finding any answers, I must realize that God is far higher than our minds can reach:

“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are My ways higher than your ways
and My thoughts [higher] than your thoughts”[1]


“Oh, the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God!
How unsearchable are His judgments and unfathomable His ways!”[2]

I cannot know why God allows what He does.

You’re right—that seems a very unsatisfactory reply. But consider this:

Equally valid are these questions:

  • Why should He—the Master Creator and All-Powerful King—offer any one of us (His enemies) life, breath, hope, or peace, salvation or a future?
  • Why does He—the Just Judge of all—give us mercy when every one of us deserves His wrath?
  • Why should He—the Righteous and Holy One— care enough to rescue us who hate Him from their enslavements and death?
  • Why does He—the only real Promise-Keeper—promise justice?

When my husband left, I wanted justice.
Jillian wonders what justice there is in living in her heart-breaking circumstances.

“[W]ill not God bring about justice for His elect who cry to Him day and night, and will He delay long over them? I tell you that He will bring about justice for them quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will He find faith on the earth?”[3] ~ Jesus

Through harsh experiences over many years I have learned that no answer to any why question ever satisfies me, ever brings real comfort to my grieving heart or peace to my churning mind.

How did I make it through? How did I hold on?

I took Jehovah at His word to be my provider, my counselor, to bring healing and peace. I stubbornly determined to trust Him absolutely. I answered His heart-cry for me to turn to Him. I let Him hold on to me.

For thus the Lord GOD, the Holy One of Israel, has said,
“In repentance and rest you will be saved,
In quietness and trust is your strength” (Isa 30.15a).

Nine months with two little ones and no job—and we never missed a meal or the payment of any bill. How? Many from my church helped with hand-me-downs and some meals, and my former husband continued to pay the mortgage until the divorce was final, but what about everything else? How did all those needs get met? I don’t know, except Jehovah was faithful. He sustained me because I turned to Him, trusted in Him through Christ Jesus to be my provider, a husband to the husbandless and a father to the fatherless.[4]

Jillian’s unshed tears and her whispered “Thank you for sharing that” proved she, too, had found both comfort and hope to carry on. Her heart responded to hearing that God’s plans and purposes are for our good, even when they take us through tough times.

How aerodynamic could you know a car’s design to be if it had never been tested in a wind tunnel?  How easily overturned are the shallow-rooted trees which never face a storm?

You can trust Him through your winds of adversity. His promises are absolutely dependable no matter the circumstances. The purposes of Jehovah are for our good if we love Him and have obeyed His call.[5]

He is the Faithful One who is strong enough to hold us when we have no strength left to hold on.


This has been my experience.

Click here to hear the song
I listened to frequently during those months
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once page loads, click on Preview].

This subject is too complex and difficult to cover in a single post or even by a single person. Check out other posts on this site, call a Family Counseling Center, or see Resources pages on this site if you are truly seeking answers.

[1] Isaiah 55.9
[2] Romans 11.33;  see also Job 11.7-9, Psalm 139.6, Psalm 145.3, Isaiah 40.26-29, and 1 Corinthians 13.9-12
[3] Luke 18.7-8 (emphasis added)
[4] see Psalm 68.3-6
[5] see Isaiah 46.8-13 with Romans 8.26-32

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